hark-hearthescreams

Well, I've graduated. It's been about a month and a half, but I still don't really think I've accepted it yet. I feel kind of useless. My boyfriend has a job and a car, and I don't have either. I don't even have a driver's liscence. I hate having to get a ride from him to go anywhere. I feel like a child, even though I'm not even in school anymore. I got a laptop from my dad. Its pretty nice, but I would rather have the ability to drive. I'm 18 years old and I can't drive. God, I'm pathedic.... Oh well. I'm sure everything will turn out fine.

Its so weird to think about how different my life was sinse last I updated this thing, not to mention even a few weeks ago. I turned eighteen, discontinued seeing my fience, got new classes in school, started hanging out with an actual girl, and saw a what seemed to be a long lost friend last weekend. From the time that I began my dA, I have grown in ways that I cannot imagin. I mean, how can you compare a sixteen year old girl to her eighteen year old counterpart? They are two completely different worlds away from eachother. I guess I just wrote this because I was feeling nestalgic, not even like I spelled that right. Oh well...

...but still worried. Not about the same things. On Thursday I have a fake audition for my theater II class. Not a big deal, but I'm not used to acting in front of people yet, so... I can sing in front of a giant crowd of people, no problem. But if you want me to talk or act, forget about it. (I was going to attempt a New-Yorkan accent, but being a Texan girl, that paticular gene was bred out of me.) Feeling pretty good about my engagment. I guess I was just having jitters about everything all at once. Silly me. My birthday's on Friday, October 17th. I'll be 18. Not a major milestone, but one that I don't really feel ready for. I suppose i